sink your teeth in(to allot of useless information) / onepopupwontkillyou

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(&more) I guess I'll repeat myself a little bit but that's okay.. I turned eighteen today (JUNE28), I recently graduated from school, I have no idea what I want to do with my life but that's okay.. I'm young and I never was one for making plans.

I live in Maine with my parents, brother, four cats, and two dogs. I like to GARDEN and collect everything from old letters to dried flowers from my garden.. My mother has taught me to love thrift stores (and be mad cheap - that's not always a bad thing). I often spend ridiculous amounts of money on things I will never wear just because it's hideous but too lovely NOT to have (I'm not ALWAYS cheap.. cough).

I dropped out of school at the age of fifteen and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't regret it, mostly because I lost touch with all of my friends.. I was going through a very rough time - depression/self mutilation/etc - and thought that if I stayed, I'd go crazy.. I left school and over the year and a half I "home schooled" I stopped talking to all of my friends. I wish I had gotten some sort of help instead of leaving.. I am 150% better now which is great.. Anyway, in September I enrolled in the local Adult Education program and, with the help of two amazing teachers, learned more in the past six months than I had throughout the two and a half years I was in high school.. I graduated from the program with above average scores in practically everything (average in one, Math.. I was terribly disappointed).

I'm having a very hard time dealing with the current events in my life - graduating, turning eighteen, etc. I don't like looking around and seeing everyone changing (and I sometimes think that no one has really changed but me...).. I miss the old days of laughs about nothing, obsessing over boys and innocence (it's been a long time)..

(Actually, I don't miss obsessing over boys.. Take that as you want. :) )

I have a few things I love doing that some may call silly.... I save receipts or buy little 25 cent toys every time I go out so I have something that'll hopefully trigger my memory in thirty years - "hey, i remember this.. we we here and did this.." kind of thing.. It's fun.. i like it - I have allot of cheap toys from doing this.. I also collect suitcases... I buy the ones that are unique or ugly in a beautiful way. I have a BROWN SAMSONITE (bottom), it was the first I ever bought, that cost me four dollars I believe.. I love saying that most of my memories fit into a suitcase because that's what I use it for, to store letters/photos/etc.. I'm kind of odd I guess. I make paper as well.. It's fun and messy and makes you feel very artsy..

I'm an insane perfectionist/organizer.. Example - my father collects state quarters.. I took thirty minutes from my night just to organize them into little piles by state. He thought it was stupid, I thought it was something that had to be done.. I've also been known to alphabetize my CD's and try to organize my books by author - it doesn't work.

I think I have an amazing memory... Sometimes I'll sit and go "remember when" to someone and they'll be shocked because it was fifteen years ago.. I couldn't tell you what happened in the movie I watched yesterday but that's okay..

It's not really my fault.. I am an extreme multi - tasker.. I can't just sit and watch a movie.. If I do that, I don't remember a thing.. If I'm cleaning the house or talking on the phone, I can tell you every small detail.

I made this while my screen was 1024 by 768 so that is what it looks best in.. Although it still looks fine in 800 by 600
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